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eternal (stream of consciousness)

from scorpio season by puppy angst

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    first ever vinyl pressing of scorpio season 12" vinyl provided and fulfilled by big pink records. comes with a digital download of scorpio season. available in two variants!

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    variant 1:
    3 color a side/b side variant that resembles the glow of the scorpion neon sign on the album artwork (see photos 1-2). the a side on the example photo has a light yellow center that melts into a neon red/pink color with black peppering the edges. the b side in the example photo is a deep dark red and black with little patches of light yellow creeping in

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    vinyl packaging design by alyssa milman. album artwork and back cover photos by jj park. photos used in lyric insert design and labels by jj park and brooke marsh.

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lyrics

there’s a hole in the earth in the spot where you stood
when you left and i couldn’t figure out if you were ever coming back
it took me so long to realize that this wasn’t
temporary

there’s a hole in me permanently that grew bigger every day
until i could finally understand and accept that you weren’t coming back
that hole is still there
but i'm trying to make it smaller
i still feel so small and consumed by it
i don’t have much room to spare
some days i am merely a shell eaten away by all of my trauma

mourning is eternal
mourning is eternal
some days i am healed
some days it’s just as hard as the first
i still feel empty sometimes
i still feel empty a lot of the time
i think about what you might think of me now
would you like how i turned out?
would you be proud?
they always said i took after you
same eyes, same nose, prone to freckling and sunburns
i wonder if i’ll make it to 50 or take after you that way, too

i’m working on trying to feel something more than regret
guilt
constant
i’m working on trying to feel something more than regret
guilt
constant
it’s taken me years to write these words down and say them out loud like this
i’m trying not to be so scared to say them

i hope it will make your memory last maybe this too will burn eternal
i hope it will make your memory last maybe this too will burn eternal
i hope it will make your memory last maybe this too will burn eternal

maybe this too will burn eternal

credits

from scorpio season, released October 24, 2022
alyssa milman: guitar, vocals
dan leinweber: guitar
john heywood: bass, synth bass
eric naroden: drums

recorded and mixed by joanna baumann
mastered by ryan schwabe

recorded at headroom studios and johanna baumann's apartment in philadelphia, pa

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puppy angst Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

it's like puppy love but a lil more sad 🐕 shoegazy/dreamy fuzz pop; kind of fun kind of a bummer

alyssa + eric + john + dan + pauli💓

pfp by brooke marsh
page design by alyssa milman

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