1. |
moths
04:08
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knees weak, ankles cracking
i've got a knack for making my way back to
the things i thought weren't right for me
the things i know that are making me feel
pain in my chest and my head is spinning,
you made it clear i wasn't welcome here
why do i keep thinking about being there?
why do i keep thinking about being there?
why do moths
gather round the light,
when it's so bright? and why do i?
why do i
stick around
when i know it's not right for me, not right?
your words cut like knives
my thoughts are tiny lives that i am cultivating,
even when you are infuriating me
i'm holding my ground this time
don't try to say that it's nothing
don't even try to tell me anything
don't say you are without any blame
don't say you are the one who's never to blame
why do i
stick around
when it's not right for me, not right?
it's like a moth to a flashlight
it's like a mouse to my cat
it's like i'm never coming back
it's like you know i'm gonna be right back
it's like a fly to the honey
it's like my face to the sunlight
it's like i gotta get away from you
it's like why can't i stay away from you?
it's like i'm a bug on the wall
it's like i'm something so small
it's like just another bad phone call
it's like i'm nothing at all
it's like i don't wanna hide
it's like where the fuck is my pride?
it's like how many times have i tried?
it's like i'm holding my ground this time
it's like i'm not running away
it's like i won't bend to what you say
it's like you're not gonna have it your way
it's like without you i'm gonna be okay
it's like i'm holding my ground
it's like you better not come around
it's like you better not show your face around
this part of town
this part of town
this part of town
you better not come around
ever again
ever again
ever again
you better not come around
ever again
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2. |
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just along for the ride
can't decide
change my mind another time, am i
wasting your time?
i know i'm
wasting my time
drowned out again
losing my self again
it's what i want but not like this
it's what i want but not all of it
i don't have a choice
not for me to say
i'm losing my head i'm losing my voice
is this just another mistake?
am i making a big mistake?
i don't have a choice
it's not up to me
you keep me quiet and unassuming
everything feels so fake
i'm making a big mistake
fed up
tired of being a doormat
i'm over it
tired of getting stepped on
thought we were friends?
don't know how you could've treated me like this
why's it always like this?
and there's a reason
people are drawn to
the ones, the ones, the ones, the ones, the ones
they cannot hang onto
and there's a reason
they all end up leaving you
why does it always come to this?
no we're not friends not after
want to run away
sick of your face
feel out of place
it's been a rough few days
want to run away
want to get away
want to run away
don't tell me to stay
sick of this place
stuck in a bad headspace
want to run away
want to get away
want to run away
away
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3. |
meet at the show
02:54
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when i come home,
will you be around to meet me at the show?
i know
it's a gamble to make
i know it's not fair
i'm not always there,
it's something that i'm working on,
when i'm not gone
i disappear,
it might look like i'm here,
but i can't focus anyway
so i guess i'll just stay
acting okay, acting okay, acting okay
is it okay?
you deserve more
than someone who forgets all the words they wanna say
everyday
it feels like a joke;
the days they drag on, but then they're done and there's no
warning sign
it's fine
i'm trying to see
myself more clearly;
who have i become?
i don't know
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know, guess i'll just go
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4. |
closure
03:49
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here's the part where i give up
on trying to get it back to how it was
i don't know how to
tired of trying to
when it's not going back to how it was
hard to
put the past in the past
can't forgive when i can't forget
am i stuck on this for good?
i was raised to try to make
everything so perfect
but when i grew up i realized
i can't control any of it
and nothing seems to work out
the way i intended it to
hard to
give up on the things i knew
my thoughts linger on you
am i stuck on this for good?
am i stuck on this for good?
am i stuck on you for good?
am i stuck on you for good?
i'm trying to move past it
i'm trying to move past it
i'm trying to move past it
why can't i move past it?
why can't i move past it?
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5. |
21
04:51
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i find myself getting older everyday
i can't remember what happened to me yesterday
i'm thinking too much and i'm not doing anything
i'm thinking way too much and it's terrifying
i still feel sick from all the hurricanes we drank last year
i'm scared that i'm wasting myself away it's a real fear
people always say these are the best times but it's unclear
so i'm drowning it out with some weed and lots of cold beer
21 and i'm still young why do i feel so old?
i'm sick of everything i'm becoming so cold
i'm losing myself i can't handle this i fold
distracted from the world and that was never my goal
i never thought growing up would be this hard
but it's a real pain it's fucking up my brain so far
graduated this year and i don't know about the next part
i'm not doing anything i just keep waiting for my life to start
21 and i'm still young why do i feel so old?
i'm sick of everything i'm becoming so cold
i'm losing myself i can't handle this i fold
distracted from the world and that was never my goal
21 and i'm still young why do i feel so old?
i'm sick of everything i'm becoming so cold
i'm losing myself i can't handle this i fold
distracted from the world and that was never my goal
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